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Discography
'Apathy Of A Spokesman' (single, 2026)
Credits:
Lila Samuel - vocals, programming
Justin Yeung - guitars, engineering, additional vocals
Saga Mak - guitars, engineering, additional vocals
Max Kiley - bass, engineering
Pawel Olma - mixing, mastering
Released 05/03/2026
'The Sound Of Skin Breaking' (single, 2025)
Credits:
Lila Samuel - vocals, programming
Justin Yeung - guitars, engineering
Saga Mak - guitars, bass, engineering
Jae Taylor - engineering
Pawel Olma - mixing, mastering
Released 20/11/2025
'Bond Over Blood' (EP, 2024)
1. Fall Short
2. BITCHFIT
3. Ghost
4. No Father
Credits:
Lila Samuel - vocals, guitars, bass, drums
Dec Naylor - mixing, mastering, programming, additional vocals (track 2)
Tyler Larkin - engineering, additional guitars, additional vocals (track 2)
Released 27/03/2024
Fall Short (single, 2024)
Released 20/03/2024
No Father (single, 2024)
Released 27/01/2024
Ghost (single, 2023)
Released 27/10/2023
BRAVE (single, 2022)
Credits:
Lila Samuel - vocals, precussion
Alex Meyer - guitars
Emmie Owkzarek - bass
Jordan Green - drums
Ben Sansom - mixing, production
Charlie Coe - engineering, programming
George Lever - mastering
Released 27/05/2022
Getting Better (EP, 2021)
2. Single File
3. Stick It Out
Credits:
Lila Samuel - vocals
Michael Gough - guitars, additional vocals (track 2)
Cameron Moore - guitars
Dimitris Bezanis - bass
John Gkamilis - mixing, mastering, programming, additional vocals (track 1)
Released 27/08/2021
Stick It Out (single, 2021)
Released 30/07/2021
Off The Ground (single, 2021) 
Released 09/07/2021
Braindead (single, 2021)
Credits:
Lila Samuel - vocals
Michael Gough - guitars
Cameron Moore - guitars
Dimitris Bezanis - bass
John Gkamilis - mixing, mastering, programming
Released 19/03/2021
Music Videos
Apathy Of A Spokesman
(Official Music Video)
The Sound Of Skin Breaking (Official Visualiser)
Artwork by @julias_ceasarsalad, animation by Lila Samuel
By Robyn E.B.
Fall Short (Official Music Video)
By Robyn E.B.
No Father (Official Music Video)
By El Fragotsis
By El Fragotsis
Stick It Out (Official Visualiser)
By Josh Wagner
Off The Ground (Official Visualiser)
By Josh Wagner
Braindead (Official Lyric Video)
By Callum Stamp
Lyrics
Braindead
I think everyone is braindead
‘Cause no one ever tries to change it
What’s the point of making excuses?
I hear another one, I think I’m gonna lose it
Maybe I don’t care, maybe it’s not fair
But every time I chase my dreams, I never get there
I don’t know how everyone else feels
But in a nine-to-five, I just can’t find the appeal
Because my job sucks, I want to give it up
I’d scream out loud if I thought anyone would give a fuck
I think everyone is braindead
‘Cause no one ever tries to change it
And when i look at all your faces
I realise that you’re all vacant
How are these people satisfied
With their ordinary lives
I think everyone is braindead
I think everyone is braindead, braindead
When I get home I turn on TV
See the celebrities that seem to have it easy
I could be jealous, I couldn’t care less
I’ll just consume the shit they’re alway trying to sell us
But what is worrying, is my priorities
Are so messed up inside, I think there’s something wrong with me
But I’ll just sit by, and watch the time fly
And be like everybody else until I die
So if you’re braindead, just take your pain meds
And just distract yourself from your fucking deranged head
But if you want more and you’re getting bored
Then scream these fucking words from outside of your front door
Getting Better
I've been down my darkest path this year
I never thought I'd make it out alive
But I learned that when I face my darkest fears
My friends will drag me out the other side
We can conquer anything if we just stick together
I never thought I'd say this, but I think I'm getting better
I think I'm starting to get better
Single File
Single file, we walk alone
We both know it's getting old
Another story set in stone
As we walk down the same road
And everyone looks straight ahead
At the cut out they should be
You eat the bullshit that you're fed
That's you, but it's not me
I'm so afraid of being ordinary
But waiting here is getting scary
But I've been doing it all the time
Another day, another let down
Running myself into the ground
I tell myself that I'll be fine
But I'm not waiting in another single file line
One by one, don't be alarmed
They'll test you 'till there's nothing left
Conveyer belt, a factory farm
Or you'll be lost with all the rest
This isn't how I want to be
It doesn't seem I have a choice
In this fuck-up society
No one will ever hear my voice
If this is as good as it gets
I don't know if I want to keep on taking
If this is all I have left
I'm getting tired of simply ageing
Stick It Out
I think that I had enough
You say that I think too much
Can I just be happy and dry my eyes?
I’m sick of following your advice
Cause you know nothing about my life
So watch me take off my disguise
I know it gets hard but it’s gonna be okay
You’ve lost a lot and you can’t face another day
But stay strong cause you’re gonna get through this
You’ve got a life, so it’s time to use it
Repeating old habits from when I was younger
Leading me to wear long sleeves in summer
They never notice cause I put on a brave face
I keep appearances up, but it’s all fake
But I know I’m better than to hurt myself
I’ve got no time for my mental health
You don’t have to tell me that I’m unwell
But I’m finally accepting that I need help
And don’t think that I’m any different
My friends told me this, I wouldn’t listen
So stick it out, cause I promise it’s worth it
You may be flawed, but nobody’s perfect
I sank deep under the weight of who I should be
And I can’t keep on lying to myself
I’ll do whatever it takes to keep breathing
Take some time on my own to start healing
I’ll be honest about how I’m feeling
Cause every cut and scar contains meaning
Off The Ground
I’m worth your time at your convenience
Don’t let my feelings change your mind
Even if they could, you’d stay the same
You’re so stuck in your selfish ways
Let’s keep pretending like it’s all good
I only wish you had a spine
To tell me how I mean shit all
It’s clear to everyone involved
Let me down, cause I guess I’m not worth the effort
This time around, it’s the same old shit again
Until now, I’ve been telling myself you’re gonna change
And we could move on
It’s time to pick my self esteem up off the ground
It felt so good to be around you
Someone finally gave a damn
You’d lift me up from a dark place
Then fucking ghost me the next day
When I couldn’t benefit you
You’d start cancelling our plans
It’s time for me to just give up
Don’t act like you ever gave a fuck
I’m sick of the waiting, the hoping, embracing
We’ll never be something, our friendship is nothing
So this is the ending, I’m done with pretending
And all the inviting, why am I still trying?
I’m not here if you need me and I couldn’t care less if you want me
If I look back through the pictures, your smile of a liar will haunt me
When you realise it, and you look to find me, I’ll be long gone
Catch me listening to Real Friends and realising you’re not one
BRAVE
I wish I could be brave
I wish I wasn’t afraid
But everyone that I see
Looks like they’re out to get me
And I don’t feel safe
I’ve been watching my back since I was thirteen
I’ve been under attack from anxiety
I’ve been looking for safety
But the memories chase me
And I struggle to breathe
Now my thoughts are astray
Collapsing under the weight
And I try to escape
My confidence decays
I wish that I could be brave
What if they know I’m afraid?
Sitting back, I just feel restless
Tired from being sleep deprived
Contradicting what I spoke about
In long forgotten lies
This year, I have sunk in deeper
I can barely see the light
I’m feeling sick, is it even worth it?
To keep putting up this fight
Every calm in the storm
Was right before a hurricane
And I tried to brave the weather
But my shelter blew away
Should I just confront the trauma?
And try to heal from the pain
Or am I just too fucking broken?
Is the remedy in vain?
Fall Short
Daylight starts to fade
I’m alone again
It seems I’m destined not to make it
Twenty years of feeling hated
I thought I was alone before
But now I feel like giving up
I’m a fucking disappointment, lying broken on the floor
I finally come to terms that you don’t need me anymore
I tried to climb the mountain, can’t describe how hard I fought
I just can’t shake the feeling that I always seem to fall short
I’ve never been the type to broadcast everything I hate
I got stuck in routine and I’m done feeling this way
Cause I’m scared, I can’t breathe
Cause everything around feels like it’s falling onto me
In my head, I’m lonely
I’m past the point of breaking
Someone pull me out and save me
Look at me close, you’ll see I’m falling apart
Feel like I’m losing what I held in my heart
Don’t fucking tell me that it’s gonna get better
Because you lied when you said we were in this together
BITCHFIT
How do you sleep when you fucked the only good thing
That will ever happen in your miserable life
So closed minded, so full of judgement
Mindless words, with little insight
Explain to us more when you know next to nothing
Bury yourself in the bed that you made
So self centred, you could have your own orbit
You’ll only get so far as you can gaslight your way
Go on, throw a fucking bitchfit
Everyone knows that you’re a fucking prick
So caught up in your own ego
How does it feel knowing no one gives a shit
You never practise the words that you preach
Your face would look better without any teeth
Tell me again that I’m the one clueless
Shed your persona, show the child underneath
Your name’s already been forgotten
You’re way too proud
Better swallow that down
Who the fuck are you now?
You’re always gonna be a step below me
You don’t have what it takes, you thought you’d take it from me
I tried to bite the bullet and it broke my teeth
Ghost
I never thought it would end like this
I was healing and you ripped out the stitch
And you’re heartless, and I’m just a fool
For ever putting faith in you
Hello stranger
Let’s talk about it, talk it over
Let’s see if you still exist, I insist
Cause your presence has gone cold
My memories of you are faded
Left me alone, to fix this mess that you created
Little did I know that you were just a ghost
And you left through a door that I thought was closed
Say I’m spiteful, call me vindictive
But I want to watch you give up like I did
And on your tombstone reads
“He wasn’t worth it, and they should have stayed away”
And I know you watch your tongue
When you’re talking to me now
And I can’t believe a word
That comes out of your mouth
Do you remember when you told me
This was everything you wanted
Now it’s over, and I know you’re gone
But if only you weren’t a coward
And you knew what honesty was
And you could finally admit you’re wrong
You’re heartless and I’m just a fool
For ever putting faith in you
No Father
It’s like hands around her throat, all alone
You made her life harder
How can you live with yourself?
You are no father
She deserved more than you
You did something you can’t undo
She lies awake at night just thinking
Why she wasn’t good enough
Is that what you call love?
Or can you not see past your drinking?
You were supposed to protect her
Couldn’t protect her from yourself
And you called it building character
When you destroyed her mental health
It’s like hands around her throat, all alone
You made her life harder
How can you live with yourself?
You are no father
Do you know the weight?
She carries around with her every day
How could you discard her?
You are no father
You’ll never see the woman she became
And you don’t deserve to share a name
And even though she’s healing now
There’s damage done and you’re to blame
The scars you have her, she’ll carry with her for the rest of her life
But you won’t remember a fucking thing by the end of the night
Now you’re just an old pig and you’re ready for slaughter
How does it feel to know you’re hated by all four of your daughters?
Bond over blood
The Sound Of Skin Breaking
So here I stand in isolation
In this dysphoric wasteland I've come to call my home
And I know there's only one way out
But I don't know if I have the strength to do it alone
I tried to suffocate her many times
But her stubbon lungs never cease to breather
As I wrestle with reality
And these chains tightly shackled to her feet
Well I can't change your perception but I'll change your mind
And I'm terrified, how long can I keep living this lie?
Cause I'm dying on the inside
Dancing to the sound of skin breaking
Do you know what it feels like to feel this way?
Asking how I got this forsaken
The lengths it would take just to feel okay
Honesty could be the death of me
I don't recognise my own reflection when it's not who I'm meant to be
In a constant state of waiting fo my life to begin
At this point, it's do or die and I think I choose to live
Tear me from this empty shell
At my lowest point, I found myself
And I know what this means, and the danger that comes
But I haven't been saafe around myself in far too long
And if I lose it all, and everyone that I love
The I'll die knowing there's nothing else that I could have done
I hate this body that I'm bound to
I hate this way that I was born
And I can't live without you
But I can't live with myself anymore
Don't bother mourning a person who was never alive
And what's the point in living when you're living a lie?
Breaking free from the boundaries that kept me confined
I confess I killed him but she survived
Apathy Of A Spokesman
Nothing short of fascists living without consequence
In a system that benefits them
Built to keep us under
Watch 'em live it up in riches while we starve in the gutter
And I'm tired of defending a structure that is so demonised by the west
It's a fucking mess and I confess
I'll be taking the heads of the next man who wanna keep us oppressed
Move
You love to talk so put your money where your mouth is
God knows you've got enough to spare
Peace is a privilege and I just can't afford it
I know you've never been there
But when the violence is pushing down on us
How do you expect us to live?
What do you stand for when you're standing in my way?
Do you believe in bureaucracy at the expense of real change?
How can you advocate for freedom while advocating for the state?
I guess nothing serves you better than the way things are today
You're first and foremost a wealthy man
And it reflects in the things you say
Ally in words while you bystand oppression
Your castle walls will keep you save
I'll bite the hand that feeds on the condition of my labour
Turns out love doesn't pay for shit, how about you feed thy neighbour?
Before you come at me about the way I think
I beg you check your fucking privilege, pussy
Rich boy gonna get fucked up if he come round here with those stuck up views
Bitch boy gonna get woke up when he's slapped in the face with the fucked up truth
And if you spend all day on your knees with your face on the floor, licking those boots
Who the fuck's gonna have your back when the eventually decide to come for you?
Oh, the apathy of a spokesman
Dickhead.